Okay. This is kind of a weird post, for me. A bit nonsensical. But I shall go on. This morning I woke up thinking about Cam’s Dad. Not so weird. The funeral is today. Anyhoo, I started thinking about my boys, and how hard it might be for them today. Dave was their very near and dear Grandpa. There’s been a big build up to this day… a bit like a pressure cooker (only without the hissing noise, I suppose.)
I think that tears and sadness are totally viral at funerals. One person starts and it’s all in, from my experience. Anyhoo, so I was thinking about all that, and how they will go today. Noting to remember the tissues and the hip flask. Wondering how the kids will look back on this time. How it will etch itself in their memories.
It seems to me that grief is one of those things that’s like nothing else. It can weigh down on you.. sometimes the days getting easier. Sometimes harder. It’s just a tricky one, and it’s hard to know. A bit sad. A bit scary.
Anyhoo… so then I started thinking about sad things in my life… and then scary things. And I stared to remember all the things I was scared of when I was little. Weird huh? But kind of funny and cute too. It kind of cheered me up a bit, made me realise that everything is made easier (and less scary) by time passing.
So back to the scary things. When I was a wee gal, I was scared of spiders jumping in my mouth when I was asleep. I was scared of those big scuttley spidery creatures in Doctor Who. Oooh. Scary. I was scared of farm animals chasing me. I know you are laughing now. That’s okay. Scary things can be funny. I was scared of homicidal maniacs, grinning clowns (those two could be related), blue tongue lizards, Tasmanian Devils…. I am not really scared of many of these things anymore. Well. Okay. The farm animals. I’ll admit it.
What about you? What were you scared of, when you were little?
xx Pip
PS :: sorry about all the anyhoos.
PPS :: Have you seen the Dos Family Christmas Blog Tour?! Such a cute idea.
PPPS :: I might be a bit slow with comment moderation today… but don’t let that stop you commenting, now!