Hello … how are you going?
I am going okay. Nervous and good and worried and fine. Perhaps you feel a bit the same?
I am lucky enough to still have a roof over my head and food on the table and a daily rhythm to life that is making me feel mostly okay. I don’t know what the future holds, but I am checking into each day as positively as I possibly can.
I have – like lots of folk – been walking a lot through these upside-down days. And I am lucky that I had the opportunity to enrol in two online units at Curtin University. So I am working hard on those each day … it’s quite a heavy study load (so much reading!) which is perfect. And I finished writing a book as well. And wrote a big draft of another. I need to be busy to be okay.
There is so much talk about these strange days … but everyone is experiencing so many different challenges. I am sorry if you are going through some hard things. I know many of us are and it’s easy for the real important human realities of these days to get lost in the 24 hour news swirl of numbers and warnings and rules.
In unrelated and less fraught news, tomorrow I’m going to rearrange my living room for the second time during this pandemic. It’s something I used to do as a teenager when I felt things were out of my control. At least the furniture would do what I want, I reasoned as I dragged a chest of drawers from one side of the room to the other. I think the very same thing now and look forward to shuffling rugs, pushing stubborn couches to new places, fluffing cushions, sneezing and spraying Mr Sheen about.
When I stop and think about it, I have a lot of things I could rearrange. The pantry for instance. It looks like an op shop and a corner store threw up in there. The hall cupboards. There are three and all of them are very weirdly organised … the product of someone who lived in homes without cupboards for over a decade and does not really know how to cupboard. (Me!) Also? Under the kitchen sink. Under the bathroom sinks. The laundry. A jumble. The list goes on.
I’m also thinking of rewriting the second book I wrote during the pandemic as my next project, while I wait to see what will happen with jobs and things like that. I might do that after the rearranging. Or instead of. I’ll toss a coin.
In the mean time, I am reading so many books and writing some (not very good poems) and feeling glad to be in good health and in a cosy home.
It’s hard to know what the future will hold, but I am feeling like whatever will be will be … and it’s a good idea to be positive and productive and as peaceful as possible in the mean time. And if I don’t try to do that, my stomach hurts. So I I try to do the former.
Things I’ve been enjoying
I am testing out an app called Audm. It reads you those very longform stories your tired eyes might not be able to manage. Articles from The Atlantic, The New York Times, The New Yorker, Mother Jones, London Review of Books and many, many more. It’s good for me because I’m doing a journalism unit at the moment, but maybe it’s good for you too?
I’m listening to an audiobook by Kate Humble (Humble By Nature) and I am loving it and can not believe I had never heard of her before. I suppose it’s a long way from Melbourne to Wales. Highly recommended! (I wish I lived in the country!!! So, so, so very much!)
I just started watching Dickinson on AppleTV+ and it’s a bit hilarious. I also watched MotherFatherSon (iView) which was pretty good. And I just started watching the season of Baptiste that just popped up on iView. I never know whether to tell you what I really thought about these things in case I spoil it for you.
I’m obsessed with the comfort food that is poached eggs on Promite toast. This possibly makes me a monster but I do not care!
And finally I LOVED Madeline Dore’s most recent post. It’s a must-read (she’s such a talented human.)
Sipping wine. And the odd G&T.
Sending my love to you. Thinking of you, special reader-person, and also your favourite people. May everyone be in good health and be being cared for.